It seems that my life, in a matter of a few weeks, may be flipping itself totally upside down and inside out. Even blogger has changed their site in order to make things a whole lot more cool looking... but I digress. Change is hard. I can't count the number of times that I have heard this over the past few weeks. With that comes the inevitable comment about God's plan and change coming out for the good.
Just for one moment, I would like to have a moment.
In an effort to cheer me up, most people don't want deal with the emotions swirling at the surface and waiting to burst forth. Change isn't just about the new, the exciting, the hopeful. Don't forget the side orders of fear, grief, surrender and even some pain. But for those with whom I meet sometimes I wonder if they don't want to deal with it. For some, being in a tough spot only reminds them of how close they can get to where I am, where I live 24/7. So they try to cheer me on, to boost my spirits by trying to encourage me to think about the possible.
But just for one moment, I need to have a moment.
In the midst of this, I found out why I keep some friends so close, because they are willing and waiting for me to have that moment, or many of them for that matter. They're even willing to let me have it in their presence, in all it's teary, ugly, sobbing glory. Just knowing that makes my need for the moment a little less.
So in the midst of job changes, relationships, possible moves, new family members and all sorts of other healing, I'm going to give myself a moment, maybe two, and if you are reading this and it happened to be on your shoulder, my profound thanks. To the God who is willing to listen to my questions and understand those sighs too deep for words, you have my heart.
ps. DISCLAIMER - I'm not talking about anyone in particular, but know that if you know someone in a similar difficult situation this might be where they are.
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